Like each years the mental disorder I suffer from shows up in automn. But it striked me faster and stronger than expected. It already made me fall on my knees and I have been very close to lose my life again. But I found answers. Everything is going a lot faster than 6 years ago.

Into the inferno, I saw who I really am. I'm the forces of the opposites.

creation vs destruction
female vs male
fears vs intensity
emotions vs logic
love vs hate

If only I knew how to reunites all this into a whole...
...I'll start to shine from the inside and my life will transform itself.

But for the moment, all I can do is trying to run faster than my destructive part, hoping that I'll always be faster than it.