The last journal entry was going all pessimist again and I deleted it.
Many thanks to the people who replied.

I've been away several days...

I failed once to take the plane but I tried again.
I can do it. I did it twice for a little trip at my parent's house.

I had to take a lot of pills but it worked.
My fear is irrational and even not related to my claustrophobia. I don't know what it is or where this is coming from...

But now I've more hope that it could worked in July too, even if the trip won't be 1 hour but 16 hours long.